6.30.2003

Inventory...

Today I have so much to do. I have to make lists of what we have in the shop. That is a pain because everything has to be hand written. On top of that, I will have to deal with UPS again about the shipping log. I will not like that at all.

I went to work and it was not that bad. Only the inventory and the fact that I could not leave at the time I was suppose to bug me a little. Inventory was crazy. I know I wrote every little thing down but it missed being added into the computer.

I did not leave work until about half past eight. I was surprised that I ended up at home at five past nine. That was quick. On top of that, I find out I have to work this weekend. Not looking forward to it because I know I will be tired. Not that I am not stressed from work already.

6.29.2003

Cleaning up is hard work...

I could not sleep last night. I woke up about 5 a.m. this morning. I could not go back to sleep. I finally went back to sleep to get up to my alarm. I freaked out when I went to the bus stop because I saw no one there. I thought I missed the bus and would be late. I went to work early and chose 70’s music. I worked my bum off. We did pretty well in sales. The longest part of the day was cleaning up the mess that was made. Moreover, I finally updated my blog because someone (not naming names) pointed out to me that I had not updated this in four days when it was only three.

6.28.2003

Watching the fog roll in at work...

Got up and went to work. I expected to be sunny and it was. At about five o'clock, the fog came rolling in. I mean it came rolling in. it looked like one of those dead bush things. The temperature was not that cold and looks are deceiving because it appeared it. I had to work with the person that I dislike. I do not hate her but she is lazy. She just stands around and does not really do anything. Another day another dollar.

6.27.2003

Excercise in the hot sun...

Today I woke up to a warm room. It was not as warm as Thursday but warm enough for me. I decided to go for a walk. I walked at least a mile in the hot sun. It was hot and there was a slight breeze but now much. You could say that it felt as if I was walking in the cement desert. I bought lunch had lunch and then relaxed for a bit. I went outside to get some sun and then exercised. Exercise? What is that you say? I am surprised myself. I figured since I have time next month I might as well start now and get used to it no matter how much I dislike it.

6.26.2003

Disappointment...

Today was hotter than yesterday by a lot. I mean I enjoy the hot weather, but sometimes you can just tell what day is hotter. I waited for my paycheck, but it did not come in the mail. How disappointing is that? I was going to be happy, but instead I am not. No pay makes me go something something (stole that from Homer). If it does not come tomorrow, I will be upset. Hmm...if the weather stays the same I might head on out tomorrow. On the other hand, I will just sit in the backyard and get a tan no harm. I cleaned the house or parts of it. I cannot say I did anything else that was productive. I fixed the shirts into some sort of color order. I reckon work is happening at home and not just at the work place. Habits that you pick up from wherever are just odd. My goal for tomorrow is to do something productive.

6.25.2003

Long time no hear...

Today I spoke with someone who I have not in a long time. He brought some insight into what I do with my time. I should not sit and spod on me bum all day. Nothing else really happened. I learned I should plan my day with something productive to do.

6.24.2003

Spiral keeps me up...

Today I slept until about one in the afternoon. I went to bed quite late last night. I was watching Spiral and I have finished it. It was interesting and yet at the same time it did not make sense. Today I have worked on cleaning up some of the stuff that I have in my room. I have unpacked some of it that I packed up. I am somewhat lazy. I have not found out what is wrong with me.

6.23.2003

Out of Southern California...

Today was the last day in Ventura County. I do not know if I could say that it was fun or not. It was nice. I played a little basketball, which I have not done in a long time. I had cheese over lobster. I had never had it before and it was interesting. I also did not get to drive back.

6.22.2003

A litte reckless driving...

Today I took the car out for a spin. Did something I am not proud of. I almost made the car spin off the road. Tonight I had to attend a dinner party. I looked drop dead gorgeous. Ok that is not right of me to brag about how I looked but I think I was pretty.

6.21.2003

No driving...

We packed up and headed towards Camarillo. Let us just say that I did not get to drive.

6.20.2003

Change of luck...

My luck has changed. I get up and out and find 10 cents. I then proceed to the vending machines and found 50 cents. My luck is changing. What else is there in the path that awaits my future? I won money today. I started with five dollars and ended up with ten, not bad for playing the slots for less than an hour by myself. I am sure that I am addicted to the slot machine. I suppose it started with the game that was on the computer that had a slot machine game.

6.19.2003

A really early start...

I had to get up early today. I was not happy about that. I got into the car and just slept. I did get to drive a little, but I was limited to certain speeds. Today there just seems to be this bad aura around me. I first went to Taco Bell, wore flip-flops, and got a straw wrapper between my foot and the flip-flop. I then proceed to drink and spill some on my shirt. I get out of the car and end up hitting my head. What else can go wrong?

We arrive at the hotel to find out that I had only booked it for one night. The next night we would be homeless. I did not know. It was my fault but I was sure that they had only one night free. Therefore, I had to call up and look for another hotel. We spent the time in Vegas playing musical hotel. It was not that bad. Just felt like a nomad.

6.18.2003

A sad day...

Today at work, it was slow. There was not a lot to do. I had to find stuff to do. I do not know why work was so slow today. We did get a new shipment and had to unpack and put it on the shelf. I also found out that I will not work next month. The last day of this month will be my last day of work. How sad for me. I will be looking for another job soon.

6.17.2003

I hate being on the phone and on hold...

I had work today. It was not pleasant. It was slow but then it did go somewhat fast. The only part that I hated was being on the phone almost the whole day. I had to answer the phone, which I do not like at all to fix the UPS system. I now have new respect for those that do tech support. They not only have to call back but to fix your problem for you and follow up. I was annoyed at the end of the day with the phone. I finally got everything sorted. I changed the way the bathroom was. I cannot believe that I made it a little bit more pleasant.

Once at work...

Today I was awake before the alarm. It might have been due to the fact I could not sleep at all last night. I know I am quoting a Japanese saying shikata ga nai or something like that in Japanese, which means it cannot be helped.

I arrive to work barely on time I was five minutes early and my boss says be on time. That is irony for you. So she has fix the satellite radio which only needed to have the mode changed or something and call up UPS to change something in the system. I get to work and all I do is fix stuff an organize stuff. How exciting! <- that is sarcasm for you. The day was so boring. I had to fix this and organize this. That was not fun. The biggest surprise for me was finding out that I do not get off work until 7 p.m. my supervisor said that I would not get home until at least 8 p.m. she was wrong. I did not get home until half past eight.

Currently I have too much to think about my life. I think Robbie Williams explains it best in his song Feel. I always find songs with extra meaning for me. I suppose each song means something different to each person. For me it is mostly about y life. I love the lyrics, "I just wanna feel, Real love and the love ever after, There's a hole in my soul, You can see it in my face, It's a real big place, Words to live by or not. I wish could travel more. Some sad news to report, I will be out of a job by the end of this month. I reckon two replacements. Jobless...anyone have any out there for me? You know my e-mail and subject please out job for Daria. Arigato! Gracias! Xie xie! Merci!

6.16.2003

A clutz even while sleeping...

Monday. I do not like Mondays and I never have. I am just glad that I was able to sleep into the afternoon. I rarely am able to do that anymore. This is the first time in a couple of weeks. The strangest thing happened while I was sleeping; I hit my forehead on the wall. I guess you can say I have a headache now. I do not know how that happened. I am usually so careful. I had better move my pillow away from the wall so something like this never happens again.

I need to head to bed early tonight because I will be one of those that are fighting to head to work on time. I will be part of the morning rush hour commute. You know the saying, another day another dollar.

6.15.2003

Packing and power outages...

Today is a beautiful day. The sun is shinning outside and it is the perfect temperature. Maybe god is being nice to me since I do not have to work this weekend and he took it upon himself to make it sunny so that I would enjoy the sun. I have cleaned up my room just a little more so that it is not cluttered. I know I said that I should be outside enjoying the sun, but then I took into other considerations about other factors and um, decided not to go outside. Then the power went out. That was not fun. It was pure agony. I wonder if there will be anything about it in the news tonight.

Therefore, I did not do laundry and not a big surprise to anyone that knows me. I have looked over the dresses that I have (not many) and decide on what to take with me to Las Vegas and Ventura. On the other hand, should I go with a skirt and a blouse? I guess I will go with a skirt and blouse. I do not know why I even bother to dress up. Just to look nice for those couple of hours or ?

I suppose I am too hard on myself sometimes. I am not satisfied with the way I look (body wise) and wish I were taller. That is always going to be me. I wish I were taller. Back to looking better...maybe eat less and work out more. Workout by walking for an hour or some everyday, do some yoga, or abs workout. I will start it keep it up. That is what I say now but I know I will give up in a while. I just need motivation.

I think I need to do some soul searching. I thought I found myself while in England, but now that I am back, I feel I have lost myself again. What do I want to do with life? Where do I see myself in 5 years? Will I be married, single, divorced, or in a relationship? Not just those questions, but will I still be in school, graduated, trying for a masters, or dropped out and working at Mc Donald's for minimum wage? Maybe I should just drop everything, go to Europe travel, and do odd jobs to get by and then see if I am still finding whom I am. Oh god will someone help me?

6.14.2003

Lack of sleep...

I am up at 2 a.m. Why? Do not know. Reason? None. Working? No. Made changes to the website to make it more heavenly feeling. I do not know why. I am just odd. I realize that my memory is crap at any hour of the day. Not just in the morning but at night as well. I cannot comprehend what others say when it is their morning and my early morning about the graveyard shift time. Hmm. I wonder if Adam has gone M.I.A. and found something to do. I wonder how Allan is right now. I wonder what all the rest of the people that I went to Bath with are doing. I just wonder a lot and never ask. That is just me I suppose. Blogging is a good idea. Whoever invented it I must thank. I can go on and on about stuff that is irrelevant and off topic.

So I estimate the time that I went to bed at about 3 a.m.ish. I then set the alarm for almost half past 6. I finally got up at about half past 7 I think. I still managed to drive ok without any accidents. I did start to lose it as I was leaving the parking lot of the supermarket. I was trying to cut into the next lane, there was a taxi, and he let me go before he went. My mum said that he was probably scared of the way that I drive. Don't all taxi drivers drive crazy sanyways? Or is that just a myth?

I just came back from a walk. I thought I was "in shape" but I was wrong. Walking up stairs and many of them at that is not easy. I just gave up after a while because I figured I was dehydrated and that I needed to sit on my bum and spod more. So here I am back at home blogging. I really need to get a life. What do you think?

6.13.2003

No drinking and not placing bets...

I got up and decided to do nothing. Only in the late afternoon, I did something productive. I worked on my webpage. I added a few pictures. I was going to head to the racetrack and bet on some ponies but that did not happen. I was also going to go out and have a couple of drinks, but that did not happen either. Sometimes that is just how life is.

6.12.2003

Pay day!

I cleaned my room. It needed it because I have neglected it for a while. I was paid today! The check came in the mail. I was happy to see the amount that was on it. I have not seen a pay check that said three hundred in so long. I know I worked hard for it. Amen, I am paid for working. I am not a people person, but when I try. I think I can be. And the paycheck is the reward.

6.11.2003

Shopping an a crazy driver...

I got to drive today. It was not as I expected. I did not think I was that horrible of a driver until today. I did buy some stuff. I went shopping like a mad person. I suppose I just missed it.

6.10.2003

Home for a month and seven days...

I have been back in the "states" as the English call it for a month and seven days. It is hard to believe that because I wish I were back in Bath, and not at home. Sometimes it is just nice to be home. Have not done anything interesting. I suppose I started this because I noticed others having a web log. I thought it might be a good idea. It would also be good for me just to post my thoughts and have a web journal.

6.09.2003

I got to drive!

I actually drove! It has been a long time since I have drove on the freeway. I was just glad to drive. I do admit I do drive a little recklessly, but doesn't everyone?

6.08.2003

Slow day...

I had work. It was slow as well. It did become busy a couple of times, but it was not as bad as last Sunday. We closed up and headed home at about half past five.

6.07.2003

Work...

I had work. It was slow. One of the other associates was not sent home. The person that was last hired was the first one to go home. I think it was without trouble an easy decision by the store manager because I had more experience and because I would be able to ring up sales while the other person could not. Flip-flops were nice. My feet did not hurt at the end of the day. I almost forgot to change back into my shoes before I left work. Aren’t I silly?

6.06.2003

A strange meeting...

Today I went on my second meeting up with someone. He was from Romania. It was interesting. We had a nice talk, but I think that was all. It got me out of the house!

6.05.2003

Graduation...

Graduation. Nope it was not my graduation but my brother's. I had to get up at half past six in the morning. He had to be at the location where the graduation to be held at 7:30 a.m. that is early by my standards. It was long and not funny. I came back home had lunch and had to take a nap. Yes, a graduation wore me out

6.04.2003

A cancelled meeting...

Hmm. I cannot remember what I did today. Oh well. I think it is called getting old. = ) I remember now. I was supposed to have a meeting to go to but it was cancel and I ended up sleeping until somewhat late.

6.03.2003

A little shoping...

I went back to FCUK and bought the other two shirts. They are cheeky but I feel that they express me quite well. I also ended up going to get flip-flops because they would be more comfortable than heels. I have been back a month now today from England. I miss England. I really do! Someone sponsor me with a plane ticket back please!

6.02.2003

Trying for a match?

Today I met someone from match.com. No, I am not plugging the website. We got along. I do not know what he thought of me, but I think I was talkative. Way too talkative. I was just nervous. He said I was not though which was shocking. It got me out of the house and into FCUK and I bought a t-shirt that says, “FCUK it.� I will try and get the other one that says, “Cool as FCUK� and “I may not be perfect but there are parts of me that are fcukin’ excellent.� Just trying to express myself. = )

6.01.2003

Crazy day at work...

Work was hectic. We needed back up. It was as if everyone wanted to come in and make us crazy! It was slow for the first half hour but afterwards, it became crazy. This one woman came in and could not decide on a shirt. She was there for over an hour and occupying a fitting room for no reason. I almost had to throw her out. In the end, the store manager had to come in and help us out. Glad she did because it was one rough day.