Since U Been Gone - Kelly Clarkson

Here's the thing
We started out friends
It was cool, but it was all pretend
Yeah, yeah, since you been gone
You dedicated, you took the time
Wasn't long till I called you mine
Yeah, yeah, since you been gone
And all you'd ever hear me say
Is how I picture me with you
That's all you'd ever hear me say

But since you been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin' on, yeah yeah
Thanks to you, now I get what I want
Since you been gone

How can I put it, you put me on
I even fell for that stupid love song
Yeah, yeah, since you been gone
How come I'd never hear you say
I just wanna be with you
Guess you never felt that way

But since you been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin' on, yeah, yeah
Thanks to you, now I get, I get what I want
Since you been gone

You had your chance, you blew it
Out of sight, out of mind
Shut your mouth, I just can't take it
Again and again and again and again

Since you been gone (since you been gone)
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin' on, yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get, I get what I want
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin' on, yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get (I get)
You should know (you should know) that I get
I get what I want

Since you been gone
Since you been gone
Since you been gone

I woke up this afternoon and...

thought I'd change my sheets. Why? I was going to do it last night, but then thought it was already really late and so I just said forget it. Plus I'd like to change it at least once a month when you really should be changing it like every two weeks. I'm so busy and so lazy.

I had a dream about Hong Kong and not about work! Yay! Finally I'm better. I thought I wouldn't be better any time soon. My arm is still in pain from when I hurt it at work Man I heal slow.

Horoscope: Everything is on the record. Be careful what you say. It could haunt you later.
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Nice sleep...good rest...

I needed sleep. I was so worn out yesterday. I didn't sleep until 2.30 a.m. but that was enough to know I'm tired. Angry is terrible and hatred is worse. If the situation doesn't clear up soon I might have to check myself into the Betty Ford Center. I wanted to take up drinking (but I can't hold alcohol) and then start smoking (can't stand smokers) so the only thing left is binge eating (which I do.) It's terrible.

Can't wait to watch Full Metal Alchemist.

A Little More Love

Jesse:
Sometimes, you lose your place,
And all you're searching after,
Is right before your face,
Ridin' on your high horse,
Believing your own lies,
Don't you now when everyone is kneeling,
We're all the same size.

Just a little more love is all we're hoping for
Just a little more peace is all we need.
Take away the colors, don't you understand,
It all breaks down to the heart of the matter

Girl Singers:
Whoa... whoa...

Jesse:
All one, think how strong we'd be If you and me give a little more love.

Girl Singers:
Ooh... ooh... ooh... ooh... ooh... ooh... ooh...

Jesse:
Break it down!

Jesse and one of the Rippers perform a drum solo

Jesse:
Take away the colors, don't you understand,
It all breaks down.
It all breaks down to the heart, child...

Girl Singers:
Heart of the matter...
All one...

Jesse:
All one, think how strong we'd be
If you and me give a little more love.
It all breaks down to the heart, child...
It ain't that tough to give a little more love...
Take away the colors,
Don't you understand,
How strong we'd be,
If you and me give a little more love.

Girl Singer:
Love, lo-ove.

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Late wake up again...

For the second day this week I woke up late. No surprise to anyone but myself. I know that I can't be picky, but I should be up before or at least by 8.00 a.m. but instead it's almost 8.20 a.m. That's terrible! No time for breakfast and tired still. I'm surprised I'm still doing OK since I haven't had any caffeine or something like it in me. I should really carry around those caffeine drops/candy things that I bought. They taste horrible, but at least it should keep me awake.

Time to study! Watch me "fai lo."

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No time for breakfast...

Honestly, I had no time for breakfast. I had it at work. Good thing I have food there. Did I study? Nope. Will I pay for it later? Yes. How do I know? I just do. Damn work and procrasintation. QE was good. The guy looked better with the hair cut. He was so "NO" on everything. Now it's time for bed and I haven't even studied. Poor me. "Bumping" on the Giants message board. Yikes. At least tomorrow at work I'll have something to watch or listen to about Barry Bonds.

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President's Day...

I went to bed late and woke up late. I went downtown and tried to find some "work" clothes. I had no luck. I got stuck in the rain and then I came home. I walked from Judah back to the house. No problem, but I wished that my transfer didn't expire. No big deal walking home, but I almost beat the bus.

Tomorrow is another day and work is just going to be crazy.

Horoscope: Your timing is off, but that doesn't mean the answer is no. Give it time.
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Less sleep...big headache...

I woke up early this morning to head to the street fair in Chinatown. I got a few free things and won something. I should take a picture, but I have to charge the battery for my camera. I keep forgetting. =( I'll do it now so I don't forget. I won a Grimace piggy bank. What are the odds? I don't know, but I'm glad I did. I don't know what else there is, but hey at least I got something useful.

After a nice nap (and I really needed it), I went off to dinner to see the little cousins. The ones that are under 5 I think. You know you're old when you start getting called "aunt Jenny". I guess I feel old. It was great seeing them and I learned something valuable. If you don't have enough presents, don't hand them out. Learn that the hard way.

Horoscope: Everything looks better on TV. In real life, you can see the imperfections.
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I had the strangest dream...

I can tell you it was about work. I think I was working on stuff and like OG was there and now I can't remember. All I know that it was about work. Terrible. I know I wasn't doing ok or I was, but it was just really busy. Go figure I'd dream about work on the one day I finally get a lot of sleep. Nice 12 hours of bliss.

How Asian are you? I'm 64%

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Bad luck!

I woke up this morning and I was hurting. I had no idea this would be a totally bad day. One pain or some pain would lead up to a terrible day at work. An arm slammed on and then running around like a chicken with its head cut off. I was also chewing the tapioca and then bit myself twice. Really not my day.

I did have a so-so day. I need to sleep early. I'm so tired, but after two cups of milk tea I'm not sure if that'll keep me awake, but hopefully not.

Horoscope: Lately, you feel that the stars are aligned against you, but they aren't. So relax.
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I'm sooooooooo tired!

Alright if you're so nosy to find out what happened to me at work today check out the link on the left for The Office. Too bad all that didn't help me stay awake. I wanted to sleep a couple of times and good thing the person who was behind me said something and told the teacher it's time to go.

I was falling asleep and I had to make a point about something. I mean I did try to do stuff. I have stuff I have to memorize. Man my life totally sucks. I think I'm going to sleep early.

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I wake up late, but I'm out early!

Ok I wake up kind of late, but I'm out of the house early because Sharon said so. I made her wait yesterday in the rain, but today I was the one waiting. It's ok, but I don't know why there's so much traffic in the morning. We made it on time and park at the same spot really because there's always space there.

Lunch I had to hunt it down. I had to buy a phone card and I got the wrong kind, but then went back out to get that and a tapioca milk tea. I needed it. After a while I notice I don't have my brain at work. I think it's a curse or something. I stay after hours and didn't plan on it. How sad am I?


Which Family Guy character are you?

Hours of overtime worked today: 2

Horoscope: Facts and figures will slip through your fingers today. Save your work frequently. <- I know now.
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I hate rain!

I woke up this morning to the sound of it. I went to get a bucket and then went back to sleep. Yes, I know I'm terrible, but if I don't get enough sleep I'll be useless. I did finally wake up at about 8.15 a.m. Just terrible. I knew traffic would be a bitch and didn't even leave the house early.

Tonight I watched Queer Eye and it was strange to see such a dramatic transformation. I still have to write up my letter to fax to cancel my health insurance. Too many things to do and not enough time. Luckily the boss isn't there tomorrow and I can just relax.

Horoscope: Don't let this opportunity slip through your hands. It's well worth the extra effort.
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Happy Valentine's Day!

Except for those that are single like myself. It's wonderful, but sometimes you just want that special surprise of flowers somewhere. I just spent it in an office and then at night watching TV. How exciting. At least I know I'm not the only one. Steven Ma an actor did the same thing. He's not much older than me so that's great. I forgot my umbrella and regretted it. See The Office blog on why.

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Out to dinner and then New Year?

At the very last minute I was told that we're heading out to dinner. Fine I guess I'll go. I'm tired, but I'll go. While there the table next to us asked us what meal we were eating. We said we were having the 6 persons meal. They said that's not bad and perfect for us too. Then when the waiter came to take their order they couldn't order it. That was just screwed up. We needed tea and more rice. We get the tea, but no rice. We had to wait. At this point I'm still hungry because when I woke up at 2.00 p.m. roughly all I had to eat was a donut and I think I had milk tea to drink.

After dinner I head on over to my Grandpa's house to celebrate the New Year. We postponed it until then because there wasn't time and I was tired on the weekdays after work. Made sense, but still I didn't want to go. The funniest part was when my Grandpa went to get us some tangerines because it's lucky and they were tiny and had no leaves. And he said he didn't have the energy to carry egg rolls and oranges and decided to give cash for the cookies. But it was funny how he just places the two tiny tangerines with the "li see".

The Simpsons wasn't bad. I liked it. I think I liked the one after the SuperBowl more. They had Yao Ming speaking Chinese. What he said was funny.

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Giants fanfest...

I really wanted to go. I was looking forward to this all week long. Then I realized I was tired and worn out from work and still had to recover from last week. It was truly sad that I didn't go. I would have meet up with people from the message board, but I'm not sure if I wanted to do that. You never know how the people on the board are IRL (in real life.)

I was also planning on buying tickets, but since I didn't wake up and I knew that the pickings were slim I just decided against it. I just spent the day at home mad because of people next door going out to the backyard to play. Yes, in my eyes it's a crime for them to be out there and make noise. After the neighbors were done, I heard this drum banging and stuff. I thought is my head pounding or something from going to bed late? I get up and then see them three blocks down. Yes, that's the power of drummers drumming for the New Year. I wonder how I even survived last year. Wait, in 2003 I wasn't home and then in 2004 I was in Hong Kong. That would explain a lot.

I hope to sleep early and then have a good weekend of rest.

Horoscope: There's no need to cling to things too tightly. Stay loose. Keep your options open.
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I'm excited about the weekend!

I can't for tomorrow and fanfest. It'll be my first. I just wonder if I can even make it to it. That means I have to get up. I think I'm running thin on time and I haven't even checked out my schedule for the lab hours that I have to do. There's no way I can do all of this and still be sane on the weekdays. Lab hours are bad, but what's worse are tests. Yikes!

Horoscope: Don't let the process drown your good ideas. Keep swimming.
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More class...and tests?!?!

I left work and thought that maybe tonight might be better. I leave work on time, well semi on time and then head over to school. I'm taking my time and thought to myself that I don't' have any homework to do. Then when I head to class I can't find my homework. I start to panic. I start working on my homework. I mean I wrote so much, my hand started to hurt and then it all came back to me. It was something out of elementary school. I used to do homework at the last minute and I remember how tired my hand would be.

Then at the end of class I found out that we have a test and that it's on the 24th. I'm freaking out at this point because we have or should have a partner to practice with. I work 40 or more hours a week. I'll be lucky if they can even have a phone conversation with me. Heck I don't know who I'd partner up with, but I wish there were more choices in the class. I need my sleep on the weekends and I can't even be bothered to go over to CCSF for the lab even though it's an hour a week. I should have more hours, but you know I'm tired. Tomorrow is another day.

Horoscope: Slow down. This isn't a race. You don't have to finish first.
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Happy Chinese New Year!

It's the year of the rooster. I'm not too pleased since the year of the monkey ended. It's good that it changed, but we still haven't gotten the monkey out of the office yet. I mean George W. Bush. He's just a pain to look at. While I was home watching the 6 o'clock news I found out something about the management company that managed where I used to live. Seems like they are discriminating those with disabilities. I don't think they'll be taken seriously now. At least they're a little better than a resident manager who just is racist. I know that's a strong word, but that lady was insane.

Tomorrow I have class and I don't' know if I have my homework done. Lord I need to get it done. I hope I remember to pack everything up. I thought tonight I'd be going out to visit people for the new year, but instead everyone was just sitting at home watching a movie. How original for once. I never knew that. I guess we're doing that on the weekend.

Horoscope: Having faith in your abilities isn't enough. You have to lay some groundwork, too.
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I don't want to get out of bed!

That's how I felt this morning. I really didn't. It was the same as yesterday. I want to sleep more and or get a day off, but that's not going to happen. I need rest. Work is wearing me down. If I go to fanfest I might as well quit my job. I get home and think that I have stuff to clean, but I don't.

I had to have the desk cleaned, but I guess I can't do it now. Must rest up for a long day of work. Tomorrow will be even longer. New Year and lots to do. I saw the news about Mardi Gras and I was thinking about doing lent again. What do I give up this time?

Lent is a forty-day period before Easter. It begins on Ash Wednesday. We skip Sundays when we count the forty days, because Sundays commemorate the Resurrection. Lent begins on 9 February 2005 and ends on 26 March 2005.

In the Roman Catholic Church, Lent officially ends at sundown on 24 March (Holy Thursday), with the beginning of the mass of the Lord?s Supper.

Lent is a season of soul-searching and repentance. It is a season for reflection and taking stock. Lent originated in the very earliest days of the Church as a preparatory time for Easter, when the faithful rededicated themselves and when converts were instructed in the faith and prepared for baptism. By observing the forty days of Lent, the individual Christian imitates Jesus? withdrawal into the wilderness for forty days. All churches that have a continuous history extending before AD 1500 observe Lent. The ancient church that wrote, collected, canonized, and propagated the New Testament also observed Lent, believing it to be a commandment from the apostles. (See The Apostolic Constitutions, Book V, Section III.)

Horoscope: Change doesn't have to be radical. Think incrementally. Switch style, not strategy.
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Man I'm tired...

I woke up this morning and I didn't want to get out of bed. I did I think to get a bucket from the bathroom. I'm not sure if I did that this morning or last night. I know I did wake up when it was raining. Then when it was time to get up I did. I really didn't want to. I was tired and wiped out.

I got home and talked on the phone. I should have been washing my clothes and cleaning my room for the new year. I totally forgot. I got one load done, but I have another but it can wait. I'm good after this one wash. I don't know how I can use clothes up and wash it all in two weeks or every week.

I cleaned my room and vacuumed the house or part of it. I'm ready for the new year. Bring it on!

Horoscope: Even the tallest trees are made to bend. And so are you. Be flexible.
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1.57 a.m. wake up...

That wasn't pleasant. I heard my alarm go off to wake me up. Speaking of that I think I better set my alarm to wake me up for work tomorrow. OK done. Now where was I? Oh yes, my trip to Chinatown. I woke up and I didn't want to wake up. It was quite difficult since I had a long day on Friday. I still hadn't recover the day before. When work brings you to lose sleep on weekends and makes you more drained then you really have a problem.

I had barely enough energy to go and walk. I mean I wanted to buy the first day issue because this year they'll all be the same. Unlike year's past where you had to wait each year to collect them all. Then I found the movie that had William Hung in it. I don't have to explain who he is, but the DVD was $13.00! That's expensive for a movie that not many people will watch. After Chinatown I went home for a brief rest. I wish I could have taken a nap, but I couldn't.

Next it was time to go to the dentist's daughter's first birthday. I think I have a picture of her before she was one. So all in all, I was worn out by the time that ended and wish I had more sleep. Work will be unpleasant tomorrow.

Horoscope: You can go from zero to 60 in 10 seconds flat. Your energy is an inspiration.
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City College...

I wake up in the morning thinking that it was later than it was. Blame it on the poor eye sight and the fact I forgot I had an alarm set to wake me up that was by my bed. I did finally get out of the house. I left later than I would have liked. I waited for the 28 and got on. Then I ran to catch the L and made that too. While waiting at West Portal, I thought why am I even here? Shouldn't I be sleeping still? Shouldn't I have driven there?

There was a breakdown on the K and so I had to wait a while for it to come. I arrive at City College and then head to the library. The strange part was seeing someone in there that I saw on the bus right in front of me. Of course, that person knew how to get to the library and to the language lab. I did not. I just walked right in and asked for help. Then I arrive at the lab and I settle in to work on the homework. At first I was confused because I had no idea that the tape had other lessons on it.

This was after I had to explain to the person that worked there that I have no idea what I need and that they should have known what I would need. I did the other lesson for future reference just so that I don't have to go again, but at this rate I'm not going to be doing too well since I don't spend time at the library. Hey, I'm tired from work. No resting on the weekend is terrible.

Horoscope: It may sound like someone's being too harsh. But they're only trying to help.
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13.5 hours at work...not a joke.

If you can believe it that's how late I worked. It was fine and dandy until I thought I would be going home at like 8.00 p.m. or something. 8.00 p.m. rolled around and we still weren't done. We took a break and went to get some food and then came back to do more work. In the end even the payroll person just said I'm out of here. We outlasted her and I don't think that she was please that she would have to pay us a lot.

It was about 10 something when Sharon said she gives up and we were just going to stay until 10.30 p.m. and called it a night. I have never been so worn out. It's terrible how you keep on going and you end up not making a difference. Tomorrow I hope to sleep in, but we'll see.

Horoscope: If you move forward without a plan, you'll just keep getting turned around.
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Rough but relaxing day...

Today wasn't as rushed as yesterday, but I did work over time last night. It didn't really help. I thought two hours would improve my load, but no such luck. I feel I'm being taken every way and direction in the office. I believe I worked too hard. Those "sick" days will be coming in soon or used.

I can't handle every thing I have to do. I'm just going to work a lot on Wednesdays to get it done. Thursdays are a no since I have class. I just wish the other clerk would go above and beyond to help out others. It's really sad that she doesn't. She doesn't even think that she can help out others.

Class didn't end until at least 9.30 p.m. I don't know why. I was itching to get out of class. I tried to disrupt the class so that we could leave early, but that didn't happen.

Horoscope: Don't make a big financial investment alone. Get advice from someone who knows.
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Running back and forth...

The first thing that happens when I walk into the office is me running around the office like a chicken with its head cut off. That's really what happened. All the checks that were put away I meant to get them out and then do then when I got there, but no I had to walk them back to the desk that had the stuff to do the deposit. Then I realized that some we don't have deposit slips and so we can't deposit them. Then a few didn't have a copy of the check so I had to run to get that done.

After getting that done I was told to file. So I'm slamming cabinets left and right. Then I get the folders done because the boss said they had to be filed and that should be the first thing I do every morning. Well I did that for most mornings, but this morning I had to rush the deposit to get it done before the courier's came. Then after I was calling people to find out about deposit slips and stamps and faxing people and typing. My "breaks" were making phone calls, but even then I was doing something else at the same time. I mean I was running myself into the ground. Then after lunch I said to Sharon that I'm going to work over time even if she isn't.

After everyone leaves the office and or there's one a couple of people left I finally do some filing. I worked for about half an hour by myself in the office, but at least I got a lot done. I mean I thought I made some progress with about half an inch of papers, but then when everything went back into the box it was still that tall. I wonder when it will be empty again.

The boss said he'd ask the office manager to get some help for me, because I can't do two things at once. During maybe the first half hour or however long it takes me to put away folders that's it and then the paper pile up and the folders. If I spend time after work each day at least an hour maybe I'll have everything done. The ones where people had a rent increase. Some I just can't find still.

I'm going to take a day off next week. I can't work like this. Friday I might work over time just to catch up a little more, but not as long. It's not the money it just that my sanity won't last any longer.

Horoscope: This setback is far less serious than you think. Move beyond it.
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Not too bad...

I didn't have to stay late which was a blessing. I'm glad. I did learn a lot today and there were many problems as well. We had no more deposit slips, we don't have a stamp for one of the new properties and so that's not good. It's a pain being the one that orders them, but on the other hand it's one more thing I can add to the list of things I've gotten done. I'm scared to take over the accounts receiveable desk, but if I have to I'm prepared and I know what's going on.

I got mad props for checking the deposit slip to make sure it went to the right property so that we avoided a disaster. I swear the office needs spring cleaning. I can't do that once I'm the accounts receivable person. Oh well. Hopefully, someone else will be just like me. I doubt it because I'm on in a million. ^_^

Tomorrow is another day and I'm up for the challenge!

Horoscope: This decision will be easier if you let your brain, not your heart, take the lead.
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