Dat Phan...

I wasn't channel surfing but I stumbled upon Last Comic Standing and saw Dat Phan. He was the winner from the first season. His jokes were funny and related to him. He also stated how he was tight cast in the movie Cellular and also on The West Wing.

Anyway, I think he's a great role model because he started with nothing and made his dreams come true. He has real talent and is really funny. The next guy who came one was funny as well. I honestly forgot how good it was to laugh at jokes. I guess it's been a while since I've had a nice laugh at something. I can make others laugh, but it's getting rare for me to laugh unless I'm watching a sitcom or something.

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You're So Vain - Carly Simon

(Son of a gun)

You walked into the party
Like you were walking onto a yacht
Your hat strategically dipped below one eye
Your scarf it was apricot
You had one eye in the mirror
As you watched yourself go by

And all the girls dreamed that they'd be your partner
They'd be your partner and

You're so vain
You probably think this song is about you
You're so vain
I bet you think this song is about you
Don't you, don't you

Well you had me several years ago
When I was still quite naive
When you said that we made such a pretty pair
And that you would never leave
But you gave away the things you loved
And one of them was me

I had some dreams they were clouds in my coffee
Clouds in my coffee and

You're so vain
You probably think this song is about you
You're so vain
I bet you think this song is about you
Don't you, don't you, don't you

I had some dreams they were clouds in my coffee
Clouds in my coffee and...

You're so vain
You probably think this song is about you
You're so vain
I bet you think this song is about you
Don't you, don't you

Well I hear you went up to Saratoga
And your horse naturally won
Then you flew your Lear jet up to Nova Scotia
To see the total eclipse of the sun
Well you're where you should be all the time
And when you're not
You're with some underworld spy or the wife of a close friend
Wife of a close friend

You're so vain
You probably think this song is about you
You're so vain
I bet you think this song is about you
Don't you, don't you, don't you

You're so vain
You probably think this song is about you
(Fades out)

Are people so quick to judge?

[09:1224] them: hey who is this
[09:1239] me: you don't know?
[09:1255] them: this is bens step sista andrea who is this
[09:1304] me: oh i'm a friend of ben's
[09:1312] them: who r u
[09:1321] me: jennifer
[09:1345] them: jenifer who
[09:1349] them: ur a bitch
[09:1355] *** them signed off at Fri Aug 13 09:13:55 2004.
**them is not their actual screenname.

I was the one who was messaged first. I thought maybe my friend was on. But as you read it was his stepsister. She was a quick one to judge me. She doesn't even know me. She signs on with her stepbrother's account and judges me. Wow. Is that the thing to do in the south? I didn't even have time to respond in the six to seven seconds before she called me a bitch. Man I wasn't even given and chance and already judged. This world is just getting more and more disturbing. If you don't know the person why speak to them? If you're nosy and just want to know and then judge them so fast then why waste your time?

My two cents is why are you even using someone else's account and then judging them when you don't even know them. Why bother to take the time to curse someone out when you have not the slightest clue who they are and where they are. I don't think I'll ever talk to strangers again for a while. Losing faith in yourself and the world is funny because I don't have a religion and if I had to pick one it'd be my own. Life is bitter and unfair, but if you don't like it and end it what would everyone remember you for? Being the one that took the easy way out and not caring about the others that you left behind. That you were selfish and did it all for themself. Don't take life for granted.

Chinese zodiac...

Did you wonder why there were only 12 animals in the Chinese zodiac?
Did you wonder how they were picked?
Did you wonder why there was no cat?
Did you wonder if you were similar to your Chinese zodiac?

I didn't think about this until my brother finished watching an anime called Fruits Basket. I thought he was crazy, but then again after he started to ask if anyone knew how they were chosen or why these animals no one really had the answer. Remembering that my brother's friend was Buddhist or at least his mom was I decided to search for the answers to those questions that my brother had.

His mother said it was based on their traits. The rat is the first and then the ox etc. You can find out if you are similar to your animal. I looked mine up and said somewhat true and then some were very true. You can be the judge if you know when your friend was born and if you're not sure look here. I guess what's strange is that I'm most of what they say. I don't agree with most but that's how it is.

Rat
Ox
Tiger
Rabbit
Dragon
Snake
Horse
Sheep
Monkey
Rooster
Dog
Pig

Site of the day: The Chinese zodiac
Horoscope: Solitude is sexy. Thinking is a pleasure. Stretch out those flashes of brilliance.
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Big bundle of joy: Baby born at 13lb 6oz

By LIZ HULL, Daily Mail 10:08am 11th August 2004

Mothers everywhere will spare a sympathetic thought for Trisha Lightwood.

After an eight-hour labour, she has given birth naturally to one of Britain's biggest-ever babies.

Sean entered the world at a thumping 13lb 6oz - the weight of the average three-month-old.

He already has a hearty appetite and, at less than two weeks old, is wearing clothes made for infants up to six months older.

Last night, his 37-year-old father Mark said: "We couldn't believe it when the doctors told us how much he weighed. To say we were shocked is an understatement. "Neither Trisha nor myself are big people so for Sean to be so big is astounding."

Fight for life

Mrs Lightwood, 38, suspected her baby was large when her weight soared from 10st to 15st during her pregnancy. But she didn't know how large until doctors at Liverpool Women's Hospital decided to induce the birth on July 29 as Sean was ten days late. After a difficult delivery, he had no heartbeat, had stopped breathing and was beginning to turn blue.

But doctors massaged his heart and he was taken to the special care baby ward where nurses had to find an incubator big enough for him.

At first the couple, from Childwall, Liverpool, feared Sean's brain had been starved of oxygen and damaged.

But tests proved there were no serious complications and he has since made a full recovery.

Mrs Lightwood said: "When he was being born I could hear the midwives shouting it was a big baby, but I had no idea how big.

Not the biggest

"I didn't have an epidural, just some gas and air and diamorphine at the start of the labour. It was quite painful, and worrying when Sean came out blue, but he had a decent-sized umbilical cord which sustained him and he soon came around.

"I think the midwives were a bit shocked by his size. I'm feeding him every three hours. I did start breast- feeding, but that just got too much and we are on bottles now."

The Lightwoods, who also have a two-year-old daughter Jenny, have been forced to return the baby clothes they bought for Sean and exchange them for larger sizes.

Dame Lorna Muirhead, a retired midwife, former president of the Royal College of Midwives and trustee of mother and baby charity Baby Lifeline, said: "I spent 40 years delivering babies and only saw a 13pounder once. They are very, very rare."

Despite his size, Sean is not Britain's biggest baby. That honour belongs to Guy Carr, from Barrow-in-Furness, Cumbria, who weighed in at 15lb 8oz in 1992 - although there were reports of babies weighing over 20lb in Cornwall and Crewe in the 19th century.

The cost of war...

I was watching the news today and they had an informal townhall like meetting with President Bush. To quote almost his exact words, "I gotta get back to the White House to make sure we're spending money wisely." However this site Cost of War shows how much is actually being spent. How is it that we have unlimited (it seems like it) funds for war, but nothing for health care and other more useful services?

Granted those who are trying for the Olympics don't deserve to train in fear if they don't do well, but what about the others? Hundreds have died for something that never exsisted in the country in the first place. There are rebels who refuse to aknowledge that there is a new government. Also after seeing Fahrenheit 9/11 and finding out only one of the U.S. senators have a child serving in the military is proof that the government does not really care who dies for something that doesn't exsists.

Please go out and vote. If you haven't registered to vote do so here if you're in California. If you want a different America vote for who you think will do a better job. You have seen Bush try it for four years, but can someone else do it better for the next four?

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A swollen cheek...

Not butt of course. =) It's on my face. =( It's been there since before I went to sleep. Must be that evil mosquito when it was in my room. I didn't even notice it until Sunday when I finally killed it or was it Saturday. That moquito deserved it. Anyway, reading about Dustan Mohr and watching the highlights that helped saved the game was spectacular. He is definately worth whatever it was we paid for him.

Yeah, I know I'm on a Giants theme somewhat. That's dedication for making all of those catches and so artisicly. Maybe I'm just bored and have nothing to type and thought about this since I watched the highlights a few times. I saw the new schedule for next month for Queer Eye for the Straight Guy and can't believe that we're going to get more UK editions! I'm so excitied and I just can't hide it! I know I stole that line from a song.

Story of the day: The real man at the terminal in Paris
Horoscope: High ideals satisfy you privately. Keep the good vibes in play. Listen to your body.
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Lots of baking...

Yeah I did some baking today. I made cheese cake cupcakes. Something I haven't made in a long time. I didn't eat any, but I'm sure they're yummy. I know because there are two missing and I'm sure my brother ate them. I also made bread sticks. Those I tossed in at the same time as the cheese cake because it needed the same temperature.

So I made cheese cake cupcakes and bread sticks. Wow. That is the most baking I've done in a while. The Giants game was great. Go Dustan Mohr! Hermy did his job. Noah was good at keeping Sosa hitless. Over all a good day. I can't wait to try one of my cheese cake cupcakes.

Quote of the day: You can pick your friends
You can pick your nose;
But you can't pick your friend's nose! - EllaMenopee
Horoscope: Your resources are not unlimited. Be thrifty with your time and energy.
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News items that are interesting...

August 5, 2004

Baba Ganoush stares at her reflection in a mirror as her sibling Tabouli crouches below her, Thursday, Aug. 5, 2004, in San Francisco. These two kittens are the first cats cloned by chromatin transfer, a new cloning technology developed by Genetic Savings & Clone, a pet gene banking and cloning company, who produced the kittens as a precursor to production of the first batch of cat clones for the public. It will cost $50,000 to have your cat cloned. (AP Photo/Ben Margot)

August 6, 2004

They say blondes have more fun, but redheads will have the edge on Sunday when they get into London Zoo for free to view a rare new-born ginger-coloured monkey.The endangered south east Asian Francois Langur monkey, called Laa Laa, pictured in this handout photo, has typical baby orange fur which in six months will turn a glossy black. REUTERS/London Zoo

August 8, 2004

San Francisco Giants (news) centerfielder Dustan Mohr (news) stretches to make a diving catch to rob Moises Alou (news) in the eighth inning in San Francisco on Sunday, Aug. 8, 2004. The Giants won, 6-3. (AP Photo/Jeff Chiu)

August 8, 2004

Koko, the 230-pound gorilla who converses in sign language, admires her new kitten in this April 2, 1985 file photo. Koko received a clean bill of health after a full medical examination, Saturday, Aug. 7, 2004. (AP Photo/Ronald Cohn, National Geographic (news - web sites) Society/File)

It was a mosquito...

I saw it once. I saw it twice. I heard it near my ear. I thought it was a fly. I don't see it until today. I killed it and thought it was a fly. I look carefully and it was a mosquito. I guess that would explain my face having a bite and itching a little. Knowing that it's dead makes me feel a lot better. No more bites in the early mornings and more buzzing and flying around.

I woke up unnaturally. The doorbell rang and I wanted to say, "Go away!" That didn't happen. I had a semi-lunch and then went back into my room. So the only good thing is that the mosquito is gone.

Quote of the day: "Our enemies are innovative and resourceful, and so are we. They never stop thinking about new ways to harm our country and our people, and neither do we," - President Bush
Horoscope: The lake is large, and once you've circled it, you're right back where you started.
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Happy Ending - Avril Lavigne

so much for my happy ending

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?

Don't leave me hangnin'
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

Chorus:
You were everything, everything
that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it
All of our memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
So much for my happy ending

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

Chorus:
You were everything, everything
that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it
All of our memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you care
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

Chorus:
He was everything, everything
that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it
All of the memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

You were everything, everything
that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it
All of our memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
So much for my happy ending
So much for my happy ending
You were everything, everything
that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it
All of our memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
So much for my happy ending
So much for my happy ending

I'm a KLUTZ...

In the past 72-96 hours I have hurt myself more than the average person. I have hit a cardboard box at least three times, hurt the same toes twice, and managed to hurt my left ankle (think a splint or something while jumping down and landing.) That was at the theater. It was not that high but when I landed I felt it. Did I forget to mention earlier in the week I stepped on a toothpick?

I don't know if it's me or if it's karma telling me I shouldn't have left the house. Maybe I should get a job? What is it? Bake food in the middle of the night? Yes, I have done that and just last night around midnight. I should either get a place that is safer or just be more careful.

Quote of the day: Samantha: Donger's here for five hours, and he's got somebody. I live here my whole life, and I'm like a disease. - Sixteen Candles
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Odd things I've seen this week...

The fact that I can remember is already something. First I saw a man holding the handled to what appeared to be a wire inspired pumpkin with children in it. Then there were really tiny go-carts. This was all on Tuesday.

My favorite item that I saw for that day were shoes that looked like this:

I want a pair, but the only thing I'd end up doing is something silly like those Budweiser commercials to burn a carb by opening and closing my toe. Time to get ready to leave the house and mail a book and a letter.

The day after...

The day after I watched Little Black Book I thought it might be best sometimes not to know the past. Also that Carly Simon can't always solve everything, but most of the time yes. So music is a form that can help you sort out stuff. I have to agree. Whenever I am feeling blue I do turn to music to solve it, but not the way that Britney Murphy's character does.

If I'm feeling blue I do listen to music to cheer me up. The oddest thing is that when I'm heart broken or just really down I listen to love songs. I don't know if that's just the way I cope with it, but maybe it comforts me. When I was stressed in middle school the song I listen to was I'd die Without you or Set A Memory A Drift. Those were the songs by P.M. Dawn. that could calm me down. It was almost always on the radio and always calmed me down. Sounds silly I know, but it works. Music does help you with your ups and downs. It will not judge you, but help you with the pain you're going through.

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Horoscope: If your baggage seems too heavy, shift the burden. Redistribute your load.
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News items that are interesting...

July 30, 2004

A pet groomer trims the dyed fur of a poodle at a pet grooming parlor in Chongqing, southwestern China, July 30, 2004. Pet grooming, including haircut and coloring, starts at 300 yuan (about $36) for small dogs. REUTERS/Issei Kato

August 2, 2004

A squirrel allows his legs to dangle freely as it lounges on a section of fence in Alexandria, Va. Sunday, Aug. 1, 2004. (AP Photo/Gerald Herbert)

August 4, 2004

U.S. President George W. Bush (news - web sites) holds an ear of raw sweet corn that he ate on a visit to the Bettendorf farmers' market during a campaign stop in Iowa, August 4, 2004. Bush is on a three-day campaign swing through middle America in the hotly contested states of Iowa, Minnesota, Ohio and Michigan. REUTERS/Jason Reed US ELECTION
ISN'T HE BEING A BIT CORNY?

August 5, 2004

U.S. President George W. Bush (news - web sites) has told a roomful of top Pentagon (news - web sites) brass his administration would never stop looking for ways to harm the United States. Bush is pictured in a July 31 file photo. REUTERS/Mannie Garcia
SOME PEOPLE ACTUALLY VOTED FOR THIS GUY?!?

August 5, 2004

A wooden stamp is presented to photographers by the Swiss postal services on Thursday Aug. 5, 2004 in Zurich. Designed by Thomas Rathgeb, a graphic artist who works for Swiss Post, the stamps are made from 120-year-old pines felled in northern Switzerland. (AP Photo/Keystone, Eddy Risch)

Why me?

Ok I bought a pair or set of bookends that are limited to 200 in the whole world and only 200. No this isn't a joke or anything. This is the real deal. Well I woke up this morning to check e-mail and found out the person who I bought it from dropped it. They said while they were packing it dropped. So they believe that we wouldn't want it. i mean we have to respond to them, but they're issuing a refund if we say we don't want it anymore. So now in the world the number of bookends is 199/200. There isn't two hundred because we know someone broke one set.

Anyway tonight is the advance screening of Little Black Book. I have no one to go with (maybe not sure at this time.) I might just go see it alone. It's a chick flick and I kind of want to watch it. Let's just see how it goes.

Quote of the day: Asked by a reporter how he would spend his first million dollars, Hung turned to his mother, who said, "Tell her you are going to use it for your kids and their education." - William Hung's mother
Horoscope: Hints won't work this time. You'll have to be blunt. Bludgeon, don't nudge.
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Time spent doing nothing...

I just thought I'd e-mail my friend to ask her how's it going and she has her ideal job and now I have to find mine. Yes I know I have to find a job and such, but right now the only way I can is probably with the right music. I know I can't put my mind into it. At first I was into it, now it's like I've given up.

I was reading articles about William Hung and I wondered how Jordan Chan could actually keep a straight face while William Hung sang. I am smitten by him. He's a bad boy but also sensitive at the same time. The strangest thing was how an article mentioned how Andy Lau touched his skin and said it was soft. That was a little bit disturbing. All articles can be read here. (If you're reading this later on you might have to check the archives a.k.a. next 25.)

Oh I did go down to 44 Gough Street which I can say did not have anything for me. Everything was mainly for those that have a degree or more experience than me. Even the temporary jobs I wasn't qualified for.

Quote of the day: Asked why he thinks he's attractive, Hung told the Apple Daily newspaper: ``I can dance and I'm sincere.'' - William Hung
Horoscope: If you get stuck, try driving in reverse. Your skills will get you out of this one.
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USPS...

As much as I love the post office, I wish that they could deliver in the afternoon. I just do not like being semi-awake and having the doorbell wake me up. I guess I can live on five hours of sleep, but that's usually not me at all.

Anyway I am proud of myself. I walked from my house all the way to Jamba Juice (which was closed for remodeling boo!) (Sorry Jade I stole that from you.) Then I went from there to Sunset Supermarket and then from there I went home. The total is about three and a half miles.

That has got to be some sort of record. This is not including going in and out of stores. I was bored and I thought I could work up a thirst for tapioca milk tea. I did end up finishing it. My goal now is to walk every other day around town or around the resvior.

Ok I don't know honestly how long I can keep that up but at least a mile every other day. If Jamba Juice was open I'd have more of a reason and more of a challenge. From my house to Jamba Juice is about 1.3 miles. I don't know if it is more or less since I go up and then down a lot of stairs. Well if I ever go there for a Jamba Juice. The thing is that they do not open until the 18th of the month. I don't know if I can last that long without a Jamba Juice. I probably can since I haven't had one since April or something.

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Horrible wake up...

Yes I know its the same story all the time. This time it was the radio with a bloke telling stories. I mean who in their right mind would turn it up in the kitchen or near because they can't hear it while others are sleeping (floor is marble which will echo)? So I hear this mumbling of something I am still not awake. I pass on making lunch and instead make myself a milk tea and wait until the Giants game is on.

what my mother said is true. The older you are the more selfish you are. Well that's only the case with my father. He didn't care I was sleeping but turned down the volume on the TV and just decided to turn up the radio. I suffer but it's ok because I don't work anyway. I need to find a job soon. This is just getting stupid. I wonder when I will ever get enough sleep? Rhetorical question but also not.

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Over It - Anneliese Van Der Pol

How could you know
That behind my eyes a sad girl cried
And how could you know
That I hurt so much inside
And how could you know
That I'm not the average girl
I'm carrying the weight of the world
YEAH!
So can you get me outta here
Take me away
We'll jump in the car
Drive til the gas runs out and then walk so far
That we can't
See this place anymore
Take a day off
Give it a rest
So I can forget about this mess
If I lighten up a little bit,
Then I will be
Over It
(music)
I'm playin the role
Of the happy girl
But no one knows
Inside I'm alone
But I would never let it show
I get everyday
Too much work and not enough play
Over and over
It's always the same
YEAH!
But you can make everything OK...
Take me away
We'll jump in the car
Drive til the gas runs out and then walk so far
That we can't
See this place anymore
Take a day off
Give it a rest
So I can forget about this mess
If I lighten up a little bit,
Then I will be
Over It
Over it
And when the world is closin' in
I can leave it all and just walk away
I can always start all over again
I am closer to a better day
Take me away
We'll jump in the car
Drive til the gas runs out and then walk so far
That we can't
See this place anymore
Take a day off
Give it a rest
So I can forget about this mess
If I lighten up a little bit,
Then I will be
Take Me Away
Take Me Away
Take Me Away
We'll jump in the car
Drive til the gas runs out and then walk so far
That we can't
See this place anymore
Take a day off
Give it a rest
So I can forget about this mess
If I lighten up a little bit,
Then I will be
If I lighten up a little bit,
Then I will be
Over It
Over It
I am Over It