Here’s how today is going to be for me:
*Wake up at 5.45 a.m.
*Turn off alarm and turn on TV.
*Brush teeth and wash face.
*Boil hot water for my funky drink.
*Wait for water to boil and watch the news.
*Make a funky mocha/laté and hope it keeps me awake.
*Pack up the rest of the books/notes for studying.
*Change for school and hunt down breakfast. (In that order or the other way around.)
*Leave the house at 6.30 a.m.
*At about 7.10 a.m. I am near or past Palo Alto.
*Arrive and park the car by 7.30 a.m. (the clock in the car is ten minutes fast so I do not really know what time I arrive but I know I leave at about 6.40 a.m. with the 10 minutes fast)
*Study in front of the library before it opens and after it opens at 8.00 a.m. (usually I would blog even without my laptop, but finals are more important.)
*Return the library books when the library opens.
*Go to the second floor to study or the third floor. (I might browse to see if there are any VCDs or DVDs for Old Master Q comic books to check out.)
*Leave the library at about 9.30 a.m. to head over to the art building to take my final that starts at 9.45 a.m.
*Hopefully the final does not take the whole 2 hours and 45 minutes and I proceed to the language lab or business-building lab to print out transcripts.
*Drop off the transcripts and journal that I was suppose to have turned in last month.
*Return the rest of the library books (the art history book/textbook).
*Meet up with Jade and her friend for venting session as well as binging session. (That should be around 12.00 p.m. or 12.30 p.m.
*After meeting and venting I fill up car with gas.
*Drive to Great Mall in Milpitas and not get lost.
*Go to the mall to find the Levi’s store to see if they have jeans for my two uncles.
*I will have to look for some dishes if they are on sale for my uncles and aunts.
*I will also do some shopping and see what there is to buy. (I am looking for those water bottles that are supposed to be unbreakable and the ideal water bottle.)
*Drive back on 101 (because MapQuest said so otherwise I would be on 280) and then go to Irving.
*Pick up package at the post office and buy lotion at Walgreens for Grandmother.
*Stop by supermarket to pick up udon for brother for his lunch for the next couple of weeks.
*Come home to study some more for next week’s final on Buddhism.
*Also do laundry while studying because I know I have not done any in the past week or more. (Checked the date and the last time was on the 25th of November, but I am not sure if it was sheets or actual clothes.)
So that is how my day is going to be for a final, but the wake up part is more or less true for when I have a regular day of school. Now you know how a college student commutes from home to school. Is my day exciting or just typical me? I think it is typical me. If I only had a P.D.A. I think I could be more organize, but I have only a mobile phone and it has a colander so all I can do it just set reminders.
12.12.2003
12.11.2003
A knock on the door…
I feel like I have a hangover (not that I have had one before but probably similar with the head hurting). I was awaken at I do not know what time, but too early. I was tired last night at about 3.00 a.m. after watching Family Guy. I know what was I doing up so late? I had slept most of it away the day before and I was hoping to do the same for Thursday which means I would be screwed on Friday for my final. Better set the alarm right now for tomorrow. I cannot afford to be late.
I am now making lunch and after lunch I will study. I will study until I go to sleep. Which reminds me to set the VCR to tape the NBC line up. If you see me talking online and do not have an away message about revising tell me off! Even if you are super nice. Ok time to check my lunch and then study.
"You court the fringes. Opposites attract or repel. Creative tension must resolve." - Horoscope
I am now making lunch and after lunch I will study. I will study until I go to sleep. Which reminds me to set the VCR to tape the NBC line up. If you see me talking online and do not have an away message about revising tell me off! Even if you are super nice. Ok time to check my lunch and then study.
"You court the fringes. Opposites attract or repel. Creative tension must resolve." - Horoscope
12.10.2003
A whole lotta sleep…
Yes I slept a lot. I went to bed around 12.30 a.m. and woke up at 4.06 p.m. I have not slept like that in weeks. I really needed the sleep although when I woke up I had a little of a headache. So I will be up late tonight studying for my final that is at 9.45 a.m. on Friday.
Dead day and I was dead-ish today. Well it was because I was tired. The past two days I had about 8 hours of sleep. If I had school today that would have been bad. I do not even want to think about what would have happen. There is nothing on TV to temp me to not study. I only have the internet.
I think I better dust off the books and kick butt on Friday’s final.
"You have enough time. Use it up well. How you apply yourself makes all the difference." - Horoscope
Dead day and I was dead-ish today. Well it was because I was tired. The past two days I had about 8 hours of sleep. If I had school today that would have been bad. I do not even want to think about what would have happen. There is nothing on TV to temp me to not study. I only have the internet.
I think I better dust off the books and kick butt on Friday’s final.
"You have enough time. Use it up well. How you apply yourself makes all the difference." - Horoscope
12.09.2003
Being caught in the storm...
I had some day. I learned that when I am really tired and I just finish class I seem to think I forgot to lock the car door. This has happened more than once. I freaked out on Monday and today. I also thought this a few times before.
There were a few drops before I went to fill up gas. I filled up the car with gas. 11 gallons and I could not believe it. That was pretty empty if I had to fill up 11 gallons. Then I started for what would be an interesting drive home.
There was no rain then there was slight rain and then it came down. I have never driven so slow on the freeway for such a long distance. I think at one point I did hit 80 M.P.H. but that was not for long. I drove about 50 or 55 M.P.H. like you are suppose to. No one seem to mind and plus the person following me hardly had to break.
When I passed by 92 there was a car flipped over. I heard on the traffic reports, but I could not see the car. I saw only police cars or C.H.P. and a tow truck of some kind. I also saw a tumbleweed. You know those things you see in westerns that roll around in the desert because it is so dry.
Oh while in class we were watching the video of the day out in Chinatown and I got crap for looking like I was sleeping. I was not sleeping. My eyes were tired from having contacts on and plus I did not get a lot of sleep. I also ran into my friend Allan. It was nice seeing him again. We have not seen each other since I went off to England.
I guess I will head to bed before I look more like a panda.
There were a few drops before I went to fill up gas. I filled up the car with gas. 11 gallons and I could not believe it. That was pretty empty if I had to fill up 11 gallons. Then I started for what would be an interesting drive home.
There was no rain then there was slight rain and then it came down. I have never driven so slow on the freeway for such a long distance. I think at one point I did hit 80 M.P.H. but that was not for long. I drove about 50 or 55 M.P.H. like you are suppose to. No one seem to mind and plus the person following me hardly had to break.
When I passed by 92 there was a car flipped over. I heard on the traffic reports, but I could not see the car. I saw only police cars or C.H.P. and a tow truck of some kind. I also saw a tumbleweed. You know those things you see in westerns that roll around in the desert because it is so dry.
Oh while in class we were watching the video of the day out in Chinatown and I got crap for looking like I was sleeping. I was not sleeping. My eyes were tired from having contacts on and plus I did not get a lot of sleep. I also ran into my friend Allan. It was nice seeing him again. We have not seen each other since I went off to England.
I guess I will head to bed before I look more like a panda.
Leaving late and I can get a few more Zzzzzs...
This morning I woke up like usual. I did not want to get up and I was certainly worn out from last night. I left on my computer and slept with it on. I suppose I could because I was just tired. I fell asleep pretty quickly considering I had only 3.5 hours of sleep. Yes I did look like a panda I think I still do today. It will take a couple days to get rid of them, but I am sure there are others out there just like me.
I left the house at about 7.00 a.m. only because I had to get some breakfast, I watched 15 minutes of TV when I should not have been, looking for an umbrella (had to take decapitated Mickey), and find some clean pants. (I haven?t done laundry in a week or so. I will give you the exact date when I can.)
I am driving and as I am near Cupertino I had to brake. I forgot I put the gear in N and then I hit the gas nothing. I did make it here on the remainder of the gas that was in the tank from yesterday as I thought I would. I found parking and I sat in the car for 15 minutes.
I learned a few things this morning:
1. I cannot drive past what time I usually drive because it is a little stressful.
2. I do not like motorcycles following behind me.
3. I need more sleep and no matter how fun it is to talk to people who are half way around the world, sleep should come first.
4. Friends are first unless I need sleep.
Another random rant: the 3rd floor of the library has cat 5 that are "suppose" to have connections. I guess that floor is down because I only see people on 2nd (me right now) who have access.
"You're entitled. Know where the line is. Turn a bitter moment sweet with victory." - Horoscope
I left the house at about 7.00 a.m. only because I had to get some breakfast, I watched 15 minutes of TV when I should not have been, looking for an umbrella (had to take decapitated Mickey), and find some clean pants. (I haven?t done laundry in a week or so. I will give you the exact date when I can.)
I am driving and as I am near Cupertino I had to brake. I forgot I put the gear in N and then I hit the gas nothing. I did make it here on the remainder of the gas that was in the tank from yesterday as I thought I would. I found parking and I sat in the car for 15 minutes.
I learned a few things this morning:
1. I cannot drive past what time I usually drive because it is a little stressful.
2. I do not like motorcycles following behind me.
3. I need more sleep and no matter how fun it is to talk to people who are half way around the world, sleep should come first.
4. Friends are first unless I need sleep.
Another random rant: the 3rd floor of the library has cat 5 that are "suppose" to have connections. I guess that floor is down because I only see people on 2nd (me right now) who have access.
"You're entitled. Know where the line is. Turn a bitter moment sweet with victory." - Horoscope
12.08.2003
Drive home...
After I figured out why my laptop did not connect to the internet (LAN connection thing), I was surfing and looking at E-bay. I then talked over with Herb what I should get for lunch (just did not want to think but thought about a little while what I wanted for lunch). I decided on burritos and it took ages. I decided to hop in the car and drive home to eat. It was so good!
I’m not tired but I should head to bed. I need to rest up. After just about 3 hours of sleep I really do not want to pass out in class. Ok night night.
I’m not tired but I should head to bed. I need to rest up. After just about 3 hours of sleep I really do not want to pass out in class. Ok night night.
Cold day...
I can live without the internet. I have proven so this morning. So really what was the point of my bringing my laptop when I have decided I will ditch my Buddhism class? I have not the slightest clue. My excuse for not going to class. I am not feeling well which is a little true. A little white lie never hurt anyone if it means that am able to have more time to work on my 8 page paper. Being in the library with no power I wonder if the rest of the school is the same way. I know I am throwing away my chance at a review session for the final, which is next week.
I still have to wonder if the professor is just a softy or just not understanding that this paper that he wants us to write is quite difficult. It might just be me since I have writer’s block and I only work to my fullest potential or what I have at the very last minute. My brother does the same thing and ends up with “C”s on his papers.
The only thing that I hope to happen is to I run into my fellow classmate and ask them what happened in class and what did I miss. I wonder how the air conditioning can still work even thought the library is on backup.
My day could not have been worse. I thought the network was down when it was my laptop setting for LAN. How stupid am I? At least it kept me from chatting away. I got work down and a game of Spider.
I ended up staying awake in art history which was a shock to me. I also got back my paper which I haven’t looked at the grade for yet. I am running on three hours roughly of sleep and a cup of two scoops of mocha and one scoop of frothé and one package of milk tea. That is a lot of caffeine. Yes there is coffee in the frothé and the mocha. I looked and read the package this morning. The only problem I had was getting out of bed and turning on the TV to give me, the artificial light to simulate the sun was nice.
I left the house at 6.48 a.m. and arrived at school at 7.40 a.m. not bad and I was driving slowly. I saw one scary looking full moon this morning. I also saw two road kill things and I saw three squirrels. I know that sounds a little like the Twelve Days of Christmas, but I could not help it. I spend almost four hours at the library. At around half past nine the power went out and I just typed something which I thought was profound. I lost that because I did not have my battery in and I didn’t save just before the power went out. I already have it set for auto save every minute.
I looked through the books and skimmed them too like a good researcher or someone who is just terribly lazy. I ended up just changing the font for it. I know lazy and bad. I did try to include and do what the professor wanted for my paper. It was quite cold this morning both in San Francisco and in San Jose when I finally got out of the car. I wonder why. Ok besides it almost being winter which is the obvious.
I have a clue to what is going to be on my final this Friday. If I fail this class…I will be crying. I mean you will see waterworks. For someone like me to cry it has to be a very good reason. Ok I guess I will drive home safely. If I do get tired, I will pull over.
"You're not yourself. If you don't like it, change back. Find time to do it all." - Horoscope
I still have to wonder if the professor is just a softy or just not understanding that this paper that he wants us to write is quite difficult. It might just be me since I have writer’s block and I only work to my fullest potential or what I have at the very last minute. My brother does the same thing and ends up with “C”s on his papers.
The only thing that I hope to happen is to I run into my fellow classmate and ask them what happened in class and what did I miss. I wonder how the air conditioning can still work even thought the library is on backup.
My day could not have been worse. I thought the network was down when it was my laptop setting for LAN. How stupid am I? At least it kept me from chatting away. I got work down and a game of Spider.
I ended up staying awake in art history which was a shock to me. I also got back my paper which I haven’t looked at the grade for yet. I am running on three hours roughly of sleep and a cup of two scoops of mocha and one scoop of frothé and one package of milk tea. That is a lot of caffeine. Yes there is coffee in the frothé and the mocha. I looked and read the package this morning. The only problem I had was getting out of bed and turning on the TV to give me, the artificial light to simulate the sun was nice.
I left the house at 6.48 a.m. and arrived at school at 7.40 a.m. not bad and I was driving slowly. I saw one scary looking full moon this morning. I also saw two road kill things and I saw three squirrels. I know that sounds a little like the Twelve Days of Christmas, but I could not help it. I spend almost four hours at the library. At around half past nine the power went out and I just typed something which I thought was profound. I lost that because I did not have my battery in and I didn’t save just before the power went out. I already have it set for auto save every minute.
I looked through the books and skimmed them too like a good researcher or someone who is just terribly lazy. I ended up just changing the font for it. I know lazy and bad. I did try to include and do what the professor wanted for my paper. It was quite cold this morning both in San Francisco and in San Jose when I finally got out of the car. I wonder why. Ok besides it almost being winter which is the obvious.
I have a clue to what is going to be on my final this Friday. If I fail this class…I will be crying. I mean you will see waterworks. For someone like me to cry it has to be a very good reason. Ok I guess I will drive home safely. If I do get tired, I will pull over.
"You're not yourself. If you don't like it, change back. Find time to do it all." - Horoscope
12.07.2003
Where Are You Now? - Michelle Branch
Maybe I'd do better on my own
No one ever seems to understand me
It's easier for me to be alone
There's still a piece of me that feels so empty
I've been all over the world
I've seen a million different places
Back through the crowds and all the faces
I'm still out there looking for you... ho oh
Where are you now?
I'm trying to get by with never knowing at all
What is the chance of finding you out there?
Do I have to wait forever?
I write about the things I'll never know
I can find a moment just to a slow down
It makes me think I'll never have the chance
To figure out... what it's all about
So tell me... what it's all about... 'cause
Where are you now?
I'm trying to get by with never knowing at all
What is the chance of finding you out there?
Do I have to wait forever?
Yeah, la da da da da n da da da... oo oo oo
Where are you now?
I'm trying to get by with never ever knowing at all
And I still don't know
Where are you now?
I'm trying to get by with never ever knowing at all
What is the chance?
Of finding you out there
Do I have to wait, do I have to wait, do I have to wait forever?
Oo oo oo oo oo oo... yeah eh yeah
No one ever seems to understand me
It's easier for me to be alone
There's still a piece of me that feels so empty
I've been all over the world
I've seen a million different places
Back through the crowds and all the faces
I'm still out there looking for you... ho oh
Where are you now?
I'm trying to get by with never knowing at all
What is the chance of finding you out there?
Do I have to wait forever?
I write about the things I'll never know
I can find a moment just to a slow down
It makes me think I'll never have the chance
To figure out... what it's all about
So tell me... what it's all about... 'cause
Where are you now?
I'm trying to get by with never knowing at all
What is the chance of finding you out there?
Do I have to wait forever?
Yeah, la da da da da n da da da... oo oo oo
Where are you now?
I'm trying to get by with never ever knowing at all
And I still don't know
Where are you now?
I'm trying to get by with never ever knowing at all
What is the chance?
Of finding you out there
Do I have to wait, do I have to wait, do I have to wait forever?
Oo oo oo oo oo oo... yeah eh yeah
That time of the semester...
I woke up about half past 8 in the morning. I ended up watching TV. I was on the travel channel and saw the top 10 best castles in Britain and it made me home sick. I saw a couple of the ones mentioned. I learned a little something about British history. I went out to pick up Alan and then off to my aunt?s house to drop off shrimp. Then it was off to Cala Foods and Office Max to buy stuff. I got almost everything on my list. I forgot to get the 3M electronic cleaner. Darn. I know they would not have the 4 ? 1 DVD/CD-RW thing. I do not know why they do that. It makes me feel disappointed. Anyone everything I bought was F.A.R. and so tax was about $2.21 for 100 slim cd cases, a mouse pad, twin cans of air (7 oz. total), and 50 pack of CDs. Although I did wake up super early, it was not bad for a Sunday run.
With finals coming up everyone is a little tense and stressed out. Although I have been since mid way during midterms, I am still stressing. Well I have an 8 page paper due on Monday and if I do not get started now I?m afraid it will be a piece of crap come Monday when I work on it then two hours before class starts.
"You're with the wrong crowd. They lack purpose. Raise yourself out of this mess." - Horoscope
Who is the crowd I am not supposed to be with? Can anyone tell me? I am hardly around people. Ok being in my room thinking about stuff is bad and about life is even worse. Life can be so depressing at times. I think I shall revert to my crazy life I mean when I was insane. I think insane me makes more sense than sane me. On the other hand, wild or nice, or sane and nice but I bet most would prefer sane and nice. I am tired of it. School is killing me.
With finals coming up everyone is a little tense and stressed out. Although I have been since mid way during midterms, I am still stressing. Well I have an 8 page paper due on Monday and if I do not get started now I?m afraid it will be a piece of crap come Monday when I work on it then two hours before class starts.
"You're with the wrong crowd. They lack purpose. Raise yourself out of this mess." - Horoscope
Who is the crowd I am not supposed to be with? Can anyone tell me? I am hardly around people. Ok being in my room thinking about stuff is bad and about life is even worse. Life can be so depressing at times. I think I shall revert to my crazy life I mean when I was insane. I think insane me makes more sense than sane me. On the other hand, wild or nice, or sane and nice but I bet most would prefer sane and nice. I am tired of it. School is killing me.
12.06.2003
My forgetfulness…
I wake up and think today is nothing special. I read Herb’s blog and then something clicks or a light bulb goes off (you know like in cartoons if I was one). It dawned on me that, it was his birthday. I realized yesterday why he had to go home this weekend. His parents wanted to celebrate his birthday. I totally forgot. I did send him a birthday card. So I did not forget. I really did, but not belated late.
I woke up to find no one at home and decided what to make for breakfast or lunch. I wash up and then decided to make dumplings for lunch. My mum comes home and I think I am saved from cooking. Wrong I am because there is nothing to eat. My mum asks me if I would like to go shopping. I say sure why not. We end up at Serramonte and I see in the window at Hot Topic some Homer slippers. I thought those were super cute!
We ended up at Mervyns and at target to see what we could buy. Only something was bought something at Target. We drive back and it is pouring. We picked up my brother and his friend and then headed to the Mervyn’s where there was no tax. Everyone ended up with something but me. I could not even get a pair of shoes or some sweat pants. A long day for me and I have to work on my paper tomorrow. A trip to Office Max and then I will work on my paper, which means no chatting for me tomorrow.
"You're outside the spotlight. You make anyone look good. Trained eyes follow you." - Horoscope
I woke up to find no one at home and decided what to make for breakfast or lunch. I wash up and then decided to make dumplings for lunch. My mum comes home and I think I am saved from cooking. Wrong I am because there is nothing to eat. My mum asks me if I would like to go shopping. I say sure why not. We end up at Serramonte and I see in the window at Hot Topic some Homer slippers. I thought those were super cute!
We ended up at Mervyns and at target to see what we could buy. Only something was bought something at Target. We drive back and it is pouring. We picked up my brother and his friend and then headed to the Mervyn’s where there was no tax. Everyone ended up with something but me. I could not even get a pair of shoes or some sweat pants. A long day for me and I have to work on my paper tomorrow. A trip to Office Max and then I will work on my paper, which means no chatting for me tomorrow.
"You're outside the spotlight. You make anyone look good. Trained eyes follow you." - Horoscope
12.05.2003
Nature calls...
I woke up around noon. I was tired and yet I did not sleep as much as I had the day before. I wake up and only to find out that my left hand is swollen. Alternatively, certain fingers are. My arm is also sore. I am getting old and I cannot deny it anymore. I had a somewhat productive day. It took three people to figure out why my computer had no sound. One person to read the manual, one person to find the problem in BIOs and on the motherboard, and me to change the circuit (I think that is what it was),
I finally finish the rebates that I had to do. Glad I have the webpage thing going for me that I was able to type in my information and then all it had to do was be printed and I just had to sign it. Well I guess I will work on my paper tomorrow. I think I am getting a headache.
"You want to belong. You'll pay your dues. Your presence is greatly appreicated." - Horoscope
I finally finish the rebates that I had to do. Glad I have the webpage thing going for me that I was able to type in my information and then all it had to do was be printed and I just had to sign it. Well I guess I will work on my paper tomorrow. I think I am getting a headache.
"You want to belong. You'll pay your dues. Your presence is greatly appreicated." - Horoscope
It’s 2 a.m. am I’m still up!?
Well I know I said I was coming down with something but I forget what it was I had to do before I went to sleep. Oh, it dawns on me now that I was supposed to e-mail someone. I saw the new calendars for next year and I love them! They are monkeys!
Ok time to go to bed and then study and then work on my paper that is due on Monday.
Ok time to go to bed and then study and then work on my paper that is due on Monday.
12.04.2003
A good night's sleep?
I am well rested today. I was tired and lacking sleep from going to bed late the days I had school. I have started to work on the rebates that I have accumulated over the past couple of weeks from thanksgiving. I think I am getting sick and I am very unhappy about it. I have to get some vitamin C and drink plenty of water. I will work on my paper that?s due on Monday and read the books. Crunch time is here and I have to make the most of it. Even if I end up getting sick, I will still have to do my best. My goal is to pass all of my classes. I also should edit my stuffy guide for art history. This class I have to pass. Next semester will be miserable if I have to take it with the professor who I dislike.
"You want to revise and reuse. The world demands novelty. This could be a struggle." - Horoscope
"You want to revise and reuse. The world demands novelty. This could be a struggle." - Horoscope
When you don’t look 16 anymore…
After I left my “nap” class, I went to my art history class. I did not nap in nap class, but I did in art history. I do not know why, but I just did. After class, I went to the computer lab to print out my study guide for art history. After I forgot that, I had downloaded the rebates for my hard drive. Therefore, I had forgotten that. At least I got a band-aid for my finger that I cut. I ran into Amelia from my film class. After I walked to the car and thought why not get lunch at Super Taqueria. I had a burrito and it was so good. I was stuffed. The bad part was that I parked the car only a bock away from the restaurant. That was not good. However, I got into the car and then drove to the gas station to fill up. The gallons was pretty much dead on.
I left and went to Target. I found a spot but I had trouble parking. I tried to do my best parking but that did not happen. I went in and bought chocolate. I did not buy enough apparently and so my brother will go tomorrow hopefully. I found a pair of pants! I was so happy. They were the last pair. It would be nice if I had this monkey fleece. Oh well. I thought I had it until I was out bided. I set a limit and I will not go over it. If it means I have to live without it then so be it.
I arrived home and dropped off my stuff to go buy milk. I thought why not redeem my one dollar that I won. I forgot to make a copy but I have my dollar. I should probably label the money on my bulletin board or I will forget. I had to think why there was $15.00 was there and then I thought of Las Vegas. When I went in with my ticket (I had my I.D. just incase) and when they check that means you look at least 18. I look 18! I never thought I would. I guess school has sucked the life out of me making me age.
I walked all the way down to buy milk. I said forget the car. I will walk six blocks for a gallon of milk. I walked down and I walked up. I notice in the store that they had marmalade. I miss that. I loved putting that on my toast. Too bad at my house there is not bread otherwise I would have bought the jar of marmalade. Let us just face it. I am old, I do not have money, and I do not have a boyfriend. (That is a saying in Chinese.) Am I dressing anyone else?
I left and went to Target. I found a spot but I had trouble parking. I tried to do my best parking but that did not happen. I went in and bought chocolate. I did not buy enough apparently and so my brother will go tomorrow hopefully. I found a pair of pants! I was so happy. They were the last pair. It would be nice if I had this monkey fleece. Oh well. I thought I had it until I was out bided. I set a limit and I will not go over it. If it means I have to live without it then so be it.
I arrived home and dropped off my stuff to go buy milk. I thought why not redeem my one dollar that I won. I forgot to make a copy but I have my dollar. I should probably label the money on my bulletin board or I will forget. I had to think why there was $15.00 was there and then I thought of Las Vegas. When I went in with my ticket (I had my I.D. just incase) and when they check that means you look at least 18. I look 18! I never thought I would. I guess school has sucked the life out of me making me age.
I walked all the way down to buy milk. I said forget the car. I will walk six blocks for a gallon of milk. I walked down and I walked up. I notice in the store that they had marmalade. I miss that. I loved putting that on my toast. Too bad at my house there is not bread otherwise I would have bought the jar of marmalade. Let us just face it. I am old, I do not have money, and I do not have a boyfriend. (That is a saying in Chinese.) Am I dressing anyone else?
12.03.2003
Not having a good day…
I was at the library checking out items and I cut my finger on my DVD. Am I a klutz or not? I would say yes. I would not argue with you if you said yes as well. so besides cutting my finger and making a turn and hitting the curb (first time since I started driving) and __________________________ ? I do not know what is next, but if it rains (knock on wood) I will be angry.
The secret to driving…
There is no secret to driving. You just have to keep on driving and you will improve over time. Some people are naturals and others need the extra training. On another note, you must wonder though why there were or are C.H.P. in the morning. I saw one so the count for this week is one. I was speeding a little. Ok my new limit is 80 M.P.H. anymore than that I should be given a stern lecture on why it is wrong to drive so fast in the fog or in the rain.
While driving in the car I was thinking about the future. What happens if I do not pass my classes? What happens if I have to repeat one class? What happens to me after I come back from Hong Kong? Will I have a job or attending one class twice a week?
These are all questions that I think about all the time. Mostly while I am driving. What happens if I never graduate? What happens if end up at S.J.S.U. forever? I mean I could not handle being here forever. I keep saying I will graduate but as of today, I have not even filed for graduation.
All I can do is ask myself why. Why me and why now? Why is my life such a mess and why I cannot be one of the lucky ones who has their act together and can get out? Why do I not put effort into anything that I do? The questions are endless and all negative. I mean for every bad thing there is a good thing. But right now all I can see is one good thing and all the rest bad. The good thing is hopefully I have friends that I can count on and lean on for sanity because I am losing mine fast.
If I had to ask myself if killing myself was the answer to all my problems it would be no. Watching Primetime Monday and seeing those talk about jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge made me realize that was not the answer although I joke about it every once in a while. They have to live with the choice that they made and one goes back every year to thank God he survived and goes back every year to where he jumped. I do not want to see myself on there doing the exact same thing but what motivation do I have when all I want to do is just get out of school, have a nice easy job with little stress, a boyfriend, and traveling in more or less this order.
This is just rant and raving at almost 9.00 a.m. Just excuse it and if you think you have some suggestions e-mail me at: daria@asia.com subject: suggestions.
"You're a closed source now. You have your reasons. Soon enough you'll tell all." - Horoscope
I wonder what that means? I do not have a personal life or about school because I do not have either one.
While driving in the car I was thinking about the future. What happens if I do not pass my classes? What happens if I have to repeat one class? What happens to me after I come back from Hong Kong? Will I have a job or attending one class twice a week?
These are all questions that I think about all the time. Mostly while I am driving. What happens if I never graduate? What happens if end up at S.J.S.U. forever? I mean I could not handle being here forever. I keep saying I will graduate but as of today, I have not even filed for graduation.
All I can do is ask myself why. Why me and why now? Why is my life such a mess and why I cannot be one of the lucky ones who has their act together and can get out? Why do I not put effort into anything that I do? The questions are endless and all negative. I mean for every bad thing there is a good thing. But right now all I can see is one good thing and all the rest bad. The good thing is hopefully I have friends that I can count on and lean on for sanity because I am losing mine fast.
If I had to ask myself if killing myself was the answer to all my problems it would be no. Watching Primetime Monday and seeing those talk about jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge made me realize that was not the answer although I joke about it every once in a while. They have to live with the choice that they made and one goes back every year to thank God he survived and goes back every year to where he jumped. I do not want to see myself on there doing the exact same thing but what motivation do I have when all I want to do is just get out of school, have a nice easy job with little stress, a boyfriend, and traveling in more or less this order.
This is just rant and raving at almost 9.00 a.m. Just excuse it and if you think you have some suggestions e-mail me at: daria@asia.com subject: suggestions.
"You're a closed source now. You have your reasons. Soon enough you'll tell all." - Horoscope
I wonder what that means? I do not have a personal life or about school because I do not have either one.
12.02.2003
Drive home...
I stayed after class for a little while hoping to get out pretty quickly. That did not happen. We ended up speaking on the project that is due next Tuesday. If I have to head down to the South Bay this weekend I will not be happy unless I can go shopping. I do not know why I have the urge to. Well Nothing got done today. I should really work on my paper that's due tomorrow, but I'm lazy. I will work on it tomorrow. For sure. I promise.
I sped home like usual. I tried not to. I was pretty good most of the time. Once it got dark, I slowed down.
I sped home like usual. I tried not to. I was pretty good most of the time. Once it got dark, I slowed down.
Early morning?
I work up early and then watched TV. I think I do that now instead of jumping out of bed. Well I do not really jump out of bed but I mean get out of bed right away. Of course when I watch the news it just hooks me like a fish getting stuck on a hook. Bad analogy I know but that was the only one I could think of. I drove as usual. Nothing to report. A couple of dead something, but as long as I did not roll over them I am fine. I know when I was driving back this car did on a bird or something and that was gross. The guts just flew.
It was raining this morning when I left the house. Not really my favorite weather to drive in either. I know I speed and it just does not seem right when I do and it is raining. I arrived at school at 7.44 a.m. without a parking space for me. I guess since I did not go to school last week something much have happened. Or it was raining last night and no one could be bothered to head out to move the car. I almost parked where I could have received a parking ticket. Lucky I did not. Now I have a little bit further to walk but I will just consider it exercise.
I can?t believe it is December already. I mean just a few days ago it was November. I will be in Hong Kong in about 27 days. I will arrive on the 29th of December at about 8 something in the evening. The countdown had begun. I swear I must have read that exact line somewhere?but where?
"You stand on slippery ground. You can look forward or sideways, but don't look back." - Horoscope
It was raining this morning when I left the house. Not really my favorite weather to drive in either. I know I speed and it just does not seem right when I do and it is raining. I arrived at school at 7.44 a.m. without a parking space for me. I guess since I did not go to school last week something much have happened. Or it was raining last night and no one could be bothered to head out to move the car. I almost parked where I could have received a parking ticket. Lucky I did not. Now I have a little bit further to walk but I will just consider it exercise.
I can?t believe it is December already. I mean just a few days ago it was November. I will be in Hong Kong in about 27 days. I will arrive on the 29th of December at about 8 something in the evening. The countdown had begun. I swear I must have read that exact line somewhere?but where?
"You stand on slippery ground. You can look forward or sideways, but don't look back." - Horoscope
12.01.2003
What did I do today?
That is the topic of today?s blog. I know I woke up and made hot water for my instant milk tea. I then packed up for school and left for school at 6.51 a.m. I drove in the rain and carefully though I was speeding sometimes. Yes I seem to go at least 80 M.P.H. and cannot help it. I found parking. It was a litter further than I usually park, well not really but at least I found a spot. I think I might have hit the rim, but I am not sure. That was about 7.44 a.m. when I was parked. I might have seen police cars this morning but I am not recalling well.
I then decided maybe I will be at the S.U. (student union) to use my laptop. They added a few more so I could not. And I had no idea you had to sign up or something to use them. What a pain. I trekked all the way to the library. I used my laptop until it was time for class. I left and headed to class to work on my paper.
I sat in class and listened to everyone and had self control over chat. I then went to my next class to find it raining and that was not fun. I had my brolly with me so I was lucky. Then I went to class to type my paper up and listen to a presentation about England, my home.
I find out at the end of class that she will accept it on Wednesday and so I can work out the kinks in it. after class I head over to be a T.A. I had nothing to do and so I left. She said it was ok. Then I went to fill up gas for the car. I could not believe how much I had used.
I drove home a little speedy but after I left the gas station it was SJPD day or something. So many of them were out. I guess looking for the arsonist. I arrived safely at home to spend what had to be half an hour cleaning off the sap on the back window. It is all gone, but it still took time.
"This is your month. Anything can happen if you truly want it. Use your leverage." - Horoscope
I then decided maybe I will be at the S.U. (student union) to use my laptop. They added a few more so I could not. And I had no idea you had to sign up or something to use them. What a pain. I trekked all the way to the library. I used my laptop until it was time for class. I left and headed to class to work on my paper.
I sat in class and listened to everyone and had self control over chat. I then went to my next class to find it raining and that was not fun. I had my brolly with me so I was lucky. Then I went to class to type my paper up and listen to a presentation about England, my home.
I find out at the end of class that she will accept it on Wednesday and so I can work out the kinks in it. after class I head over to be a T.A. I had nothing to do and so I left. She said it was ok. Then I went to fill up gas for the car. I could not believe how much I had used.
I drove home a little speedy but after I left the gas station it was SJPD day or something. So many of them were out. I guess looking for the arsonist. I arrived safely at home to spend what had to be half an hour cleaning off the sap on the back window. It is all gone, but it still took time.
"This is your month. Anything can happen if you truly want it. Use your leverage." - Horoscope
Family dinner...
It was interesting. The dinner was at Restaurant Peony. The ones that showed up were the usual. Of course we were the last to show up. it was embarrassing. The food was average. This cousin I guess of ours just kept complaining about how the food kept coming. I found that annoying. He is about 10 or something. I am not too sure.
I gave my aunt the stuff that I had purchased for her. Dinner was fine. Nothing special was made. I ate a little bit of lobster and when it was cold (tastes better hot) and some noodles. I really have not a clue what I ate. I think it was the imitation apple cider that filled me. I had a cup and then a little more. I also drank tea. You know water is good for you. I have learned that. I do try to drink a liter a day. That is a step up from nothing. I had better get to bed. It is almost 1.00 a.m. and I have to be up at 5.45 a.m.
I gave my aunt the stuff that I had purchased for her. Dinner was fine. Nothing special was made. I ate a little bit of lobster and when it was cold (tastes better hot) and some noodles. I really have not a clue what I ate. I think it was the imitation apple cider that filled me. I had a cup and then a little more. I also drank tea. You know water is good for you. I have learned that. I do try to drink a liter a day. That is a step up from nothing. I had better get to bed. It is almost 1.00 a.m. and I have to be up at 5.45 a.m.
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